Today is another one of those days where I have hundreds of thoughts racing through my mind, and not nearly enough time or energy to get them all straight. Some of it’s due in part to drama with the X, some of it is excitement for the opportunities to come, much of it is because life right now is just so dang awesome. So if this post doesn’t exactly make sense or flow together… well, I’m not sorry, but hope you get it.
A Random One for You
It really amazes me that at this current junction in life, the best word to describe how I feel is “happy”. This is probably one of the most difficult times I’ve ever had to get thru, yet deep down I’m calmed by an underlying feeling of happiness and peace with who I am and where I’m going. I haven’t fully defined either one of those, but it’s really cool to know that I’m proud of what I’ve defined so far. I’m happy with what I’ve found out about myself. And I’m excited about all the paths I have to choose from moving forward.
I like how life is playing out. I love waking up each morning wondering what this day is going to bring. Even if I get a bad feeling that something is about to go down, I’m still eager to find out what that is and figure out how to overcome it. It’s exciting to know that I can deal with issues on my own, and fix them on my own, too. And yeah, maybe I’m still finding my strength and independence, but it’s awesome to know it’s there and I will only get stronger.
I LOVE just going with my feelings. Laying it out there how I feel, what I think, and how I’m going to approach life. I’m not going to regret or apologize for the way I think/feel/act, because I’m looking at life as a journey to embrace… no regrets, just lessons learned. I like telling people how I feel about them. I like finally having an open, honest relationship with no stress, no pressure, no strings attached. I like that it’s undefined. I like that I can enjoy it hour-by-hour, day-by-day. It feels more real than any exclusive, defined relationship I’ve ever been in. I like that it makes me happy, and that if it ever stops making me happy… well, I can move on because the purpose is to enjoy it as long as it feels good.
I like life. I’m happy. I love my friends and family, and love the friends that have become family. It may be be an awkward situation, but I’m excited for Kara & Josh. I’m looking forward to the addition that Kelli’s cooking up, too! I’m excited for the new friends I’ve made, and the awesome relationships that I’m sure will grow over time. I can’t wait to see what my next career move will be. I can’t wait to live abroad and expand my horizons. I love the sun. I love the month of May in Indianapolis. There are so many great things to be thankful for and happy about.
So I guess to finish this one off for today… enjoy the moment, love life’s challenges, there are no regrets just lessons learned… and HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!!!