“I find the great thing in this world is not so much where we stand, as in what direction we are moving… we must sail sometimes with the wind and sometimes against it… but we must sail and not drift nor lie at anchor.” – Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr.
Life sure is moving in a different direction these days, and I am so happy with how things are going. Two years ago I would never have thought I’d be HAPPY, let alone engaged to the greatest guy on the planet and looking forward to a truly spectacular life. It’s taken a lot of hard work… a lot of tears… a lot of laughter. But most of all, a lot of faith.
My friends tell me they are surprised by how quickly I’ve changed my life, and how much I’ve changed it for the better. They look to me as a role model for finding happiness, or getting back on track. This boggles me. It humbles me. But most of all, it scares me. It’s been a very hard road. Yes, it’s been short and probably looks easy from the outside… But I just want to somehow make them understand, I would not have wished my struggles upon my worst enemy. Yes, it was the best decision for ME, but it certainly wasn’t easy.
My best friend Katie calls me a Type A. I’m so crazy detail-oriented and on top of things. I certainly wouldn’t have survived the past couple of years if I hadn’t had a very clear, well-defined end goal in mind. I wouldn’t have been able to get through much of the unfortunate things my family has faced this past year if I had not been focused.
But most of all, I wouldn’t have gotten to where I am today if I didn’t have my Captain Awesome to calm and center me. To give me purpose and direction, faith and love. He’s my everything, and I’m so proud and humbled to be asked to stand by his side for the rest of our lives.