Archive for March, 2009

I’m Like a River

Whenever I’m asked to describe myself, I often say “I’m pretty go-with-the-flow”. I use this to mean I don’t get hung up on things beyond my control and I tend to take each of life’s turns as a new trip to go on.

Sometimes people interpret “go-with-the-flow” as lazy or unmotivated to make change and take a stand against things that are important to your values. That is completely not the case.

So I’m changing my tune to say “I’m like a river”.

Rivers have a destination — most of the time they flow to the sea. As they run by their obstacles, they wear away a bit of the resistance. Over time, they erode the things that get in their way — sometimes they just wait until they have the power & resources to wash over them, sometimes they just knock ’em down altogether. Usually, they just patiently wait until their time has come.

Instead of head-on confrontation, rivers are good at easing by the obstacles in life, gently smoothing away the edges of resistance with reason and compassion. All the while trusting that loved ones will exert sufficient influence to keep me under control.

I’m like a river.

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Playing Catch-Up

So I’ve been totally slacking on the blog lately. It kinda seems like if I’m in a good mood and things are going well, I have nothing to say. Apparently I blog when I have things to complain about.

The only things going on in life right now is wedding planning, work, and keeping up with Charlie. I spend the grand majority of my time with Jason, of course. We’re going to start working on organizing and painting his house so that I can start moving stuff in.

Last weekend we visited Jason’s cousin Jordan in Cinci, and stayed at her boyfriend’s house. We went to Funny Bone Comedy Club in Newport Harbor to see comedian Jeff Dye. He was hilarious, and I got a picture taken with him after the show.

Kristin & Jeff Dye

Kristin & Jeff Dye

In medical news… I had a upper endoscopy done last Friday to see what’s going on in my tummy. Nothing major to report. There’s the possibility of ulcers, but nothing really obvious showed up.

Things have been amazing with my Captain Awesome. We always have so much fun together, whether we’re just hanging out at home, out shopping, or out on the town. I smile constantly because of him. He’s my everything.

Kristin & Jason in Cincinnati

Kristin & Jason in Cincinnati

Well today I laughed pretty hard and I must share it with you. If you haven’t yet seen these videos, you are certainly missing out.

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Greater than Yourself

I just started reading a new book called Greater than Yourself by Steve Farber. It’s the first book I’ve gotten excited about since reading Eat, Love, Pray by Elizabeth Gilbert, which is what inspired this blog and my journey to find balance between faith, pleasure, and love.

If you get a chance, check out both books. I’d love to do a book club or Leadership Challenge on either one, so hit me up if you’re interested.

Greater than Yourself is an inspiring parable on the greatest leadership lesson of all — that the best leaders go beyond the tenets of the Golden Rule and help others to be better than they are themselves. Greater than Yourself is more than just a book for business leaders. It’s a way of life, and gives you a lifestyle that makes your personal life more meaningful than you ever imagined possible.

OK, that’s my plug. Thanks for listening.

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In Need of a Pick-Me-Up?

I think part of surviving life is understanding the concept of tit for tat. We know that what goes up must come down. We know that the true nature of a free market system is that the lows are as great as the highs. Happiness tomorrow is that much sweeter because of today’s journey through the trenches. And so on.

When today is a struggle, when all the chips feel as tho they are stacked against you… when it seems like you’re the only asset you’ve got… know this: “We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give.” —Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965), British statesman, prime minister, author, Nobel Prize winner

Here are some things I think about when the day seems impossible to get thru.

“Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” —Confucius (551-479 B.C.), philosopher

“If you’re trying to achieve, there will be road blocks. I’ve had them; everybody has had them. But obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.” —Michael Jordan (b. 1963), retired professional basketball player, businessman

“Caring about others, running the risk of feeling, and leaving an impact on people, brings happiness.” —Harold Kushner

“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.” —Dr. Leonardo Buscaglia (1924-1998), professor, author

“Discipline isn’t just punishing, forcing compliance or stamping out bad behavior. Rather, discipline has to do with teaching proper deportment, caring about others, controlling oneself and putting someone else’s wishes before one’s own when the occasion calls for it.” —Lawrence Balter (20th century), psychologist, author

“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” —Maya Angelou (b. 1928), poet

And when all else fails, go shopping.

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It’s Back

For years, I struggled with some crazy attack on my stomach, which we originally thought was an issue with my gallbladder. I’ve missed a Christmas day with family, plenty of school, many sorority events, freshmen orientation, and a whole slew of other things because of whatever is wrong with me. Every time, I wound up in the ER, but no one could figure out what was really wrong with me.

A couple of years ago, I was experiencing the symptoms and went in for my typical night in the ER, and discovered that my appendix was ready to rupture, so I had an emergency appendectomy. I really believed that was the cure to my un-diagnosable illness. After the appendectomy, I only experienced a “gall bladder attack” once.

Tonight I’ve had the worst one in history. Like the others before, it all started with sudden and extremely intense pain in my lower abdomen that radiated up to my bottom ribs, and around my back. It makes it impossible to stand up straight or lay flat. The pain is so intense, it causes me to vomit for hours and hours. In the ER, they guage this as Level 10 pain, and typically dope me up on morphine to calm me down.

Whenever the pain is this intense, my body temperature drops considerably. The lowest on record was 95.4, and I could definitely feel that happen again tonight. I shiver and shake uncontrollably, no matter how many pairs of sweatpants or blankets I put on. It’s like being the stick inside the popsicle; you’re stiff with pain so you can’t really move around and you’re cold, clammy and wet.

Most times, when I feel my temperature drop and the pain is a 10, I lose track of time and go in & out of consciousness. Tonight I focused really hard on Jason & his friends in the living room… and since the walls are paper thin, it was easy to hear what they were talking about. Being able to focus on them, kept me from passing out from the pain — although I can’t be sure I truly stayed with it for 4 hours…

Right now my pain is down to a 7, and is radiating around my back and down my left leg in a very sharp, continuous ache. It feels like someone has their hands inside my body and is wringing everything out. My back feels like someone beat me with an aluminum bat. And my stomach… after a few intense hours of pain, you sorta loose feeling at the source of the pain. I can still feel the pressure, but the other stuff that’s hurting distracts me from the pain in my abdomen.

I know I should go to the hospital… but since I’ve been able to pull myself together pretty well tonight, I feel like I can master this particular attack. Besides, I can’t afford another $3,000 ER bill. If it’s still a 6 or above in the morning, I’ll go straight to the ER.

Oh, and I’m skipping church in the morning.

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YAY!

OK… I’ve been trying not to do this, but I just have to brag.

I’m getting married to Captain Awesome!!!

I’m so so so excited and so so so super happy!! I’ve tried to be really grown up and mature about it, but I just can’t hold it in anymore. I want the world to know how extremely happy I am!  The pieces are finally fitting together, and life is so bright and fun!!!

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You’re My Sunday

Sometimes the words just pour out of my head and onto the screen. Other times, the thoughts and feelings are running so strong that there’s no hope for getting them to make sense in my own head; let alone for the world to read. Usually when I’m really struggling to bring words and meaning to the things I’m thinking and feeling, I listen to music. I find a lot of songs that express what my brain cannot unlock.

This goes out to my Captain Awesome.  You’re My Sunday.

Don’t you love waking up
and don’t have to rush ’cause you ain’t got much to do
Lay in bed with the TV on all day long
if you wanted to
You spend so much time
worried bout whats coming up next
Can’t even find a little room a little space
Even catch a breath

When life is like a hurricane
Flying off the rails like a fast train
Everything around me is so insane
You come and take it all away
You’re my Sunday

You show up right on time
Just when I need to take it slow
It’s a mystery how easily you found the key
That always brings me home
You have a way of taking
The noise and drowning it out
I don’t know what I would do
If I woke up and you were not around

When life is like a hurricane
Flying off the rails like a fast train
Everything around me is so insane
You come and take it all away
You’re my Sunday

You’re My Sunday by Jessica Simpson

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