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I totally have writers block. I feel like I need to write, but have no idea what to say.
I guess I’ll just treat this like a “Dear Diary” journal. Today is a beautiful day. It’s very warm for March, and the sun is peaking through the clouds. Charlie and I took a walk at lunchtime, and I’m thinking about getting him out for another one. I plan on attending a fitness class at LA Fitness tonight. Jason and I joined the club 1 month ago. I can’t say that I’ve been going regularly, but I have been going. I need to go more. My goal is to go 4x/week. I started off very strong, but then felt sick and skipped a week.
I’ve started a spiritual journal. Again, I know I should write something, but have no idea what to say. I think that I’m a stronger writer in the mornings, however lack the discipline to get up early and hammer out profound thoughts. I would love to get in the habit of getting up early to do my Bible Study homework and journal. Maybe tomorrow will be the first day I accomplish that.
I have a handful of really great friends that I love dearly. I wish I spent more time with them. That will be one of my priorities this year — spending quality time with dear friends. I’ve already stopped playing Cafe World, and next on the list is Farmville. I also plan on limiting TV and Internet usage in the evenings. I want to have plenty of time to spend building relationships.
Jason is always at the top of my priority list in life…. however I just relaized that maybe I’m not honoring that priority like I should, since he asked me to tend to his laundry today and I just noticed the dryer has been off for over an hour. *Oops*
So I’ve been totally slacking on the blog lately. It kinda seems like if I’m in a good mood and things are going well, I have nothing to say. Apparently I blog when I have things to complain about.
The only things going on in life right now is wedding planning, work, and keeping up with Charlie. I spend the grand majority of my time with Jason, of course. We’re going to start working on organizing and painting his house so that I can start moving stuff in.
Last weekend we visited Jason’s cousin Jordan in Cinci, and stayed at her boyfriend’s house. We went to Funny Bone Comedy Club in Newport Harbor to see comedian Jeff Dye. He was hilarious, and I got a picture taken with him after the show.
In medical news… I had a upper endoscopy done last Friday to see what’s going on in my tummy. Nothing major to report. There’s the possibility of ulcers, but nothing really obvious showed up.
Things have been amazing with my Captain Awesome. We always have so much fun together, whether we’re just hanging out at home, out shopping, or out on the town. I smile constantly because of him. He’s my everything.
Well today I laughed pretty hard and I must share it with you. If you haven’t yet seen these videos, you are certainly missing out.
For years, I struggled with some crazy attack on my stomach, which we originally thought was an issue with my gallbladder. I’ve missed a Christmas day with family, plenty of school, many sorority events, freshmen orientation, and a whole slew of other things because of whatever is wrong with me. Every time, I wound up in the ER, but no one could figure out what was really wrong with me.
A couple of years ago, I was experiencing the symptoms and went in for my typical night in the ER, and discovered that my appendix was ready to rupture, so I had an emergency appendectomy. I really believed that was the cure to my un-diagnosable illness. After the appendectomy, I only experienced a “gall bladder attack” once.
Tonight I’ve had the worst one in history. Like the others before, it all started with sudden and extremely intense pain in my lower abdomen that radiated up to my bottom ribs, and around my back. It makes it impossible to stand up straight or lay flat. The pain is so intense, it causes me to vomit for hours and hours. In the ER, they guage this as Level 10 pain, and typically dope me up on morphine to calm me down.
Whenever the pain is this intense, my body temperature drops considerably. The lowest on record was 95.4, and I could definitely feel that happen again tonight. I shiver and shake uncontrollably, no matter how many pairs of sweatpants or blankets I put on. It’s like being the stick inside the popsicle; you’re stiff with pain so you can’t really move around and you’re cold, clammy and wet.
Most times, when I feel my temperature drop and the pain is a 10, I lose track of time and go in & out of consciousness. Tonight I focused really hard on Jason & his friends in the living room… and since the walls are paper thin, it was easy to hear what they were talking about. Being able to focus on them, kept me from passing out from the pain — although I can’t be sure I truly stayed with it for 4 hours…
Right now my pain is down to a 7, and is radiating around my back and down my left leg in a very sharp, continuous ache. It feels like someone has their hands inside my body and is wringing everything out. My back feels like someone beat me with an aluminum bat. And my stomach… after a few intense hours of pain, you sorta loose feeling at the source of the pain. I can still feel the pressure, but the other stuff that’s hurting distracts me from the pain in my abdomen.
I know I should go to the hospital… but since I’ve been able to pull myself together pretty well tonight, I feel like I can master this particular attack. Besides, I can’t afford another $3,000 ER bill. If it’s still a 6 or above in the morning, I’ll go straight to the ER.
Oh, and I’m skipping church in the morning.